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Peace and Chaos

I walk into people’s lives with energy, loyalty, love, and truth they have never had before.

Not because I’m trying to fix them.
Not because I need anything from them.
But because that’s just who I am.

I don’t always come wrapped in stillness.
I’m not always soft spoken or soothing.
But I am real.
And real shakes the room.

Because when you are used to dysfunction, sincerity feels suspicious.
When your normal is survival mode, consistency feels like a setup.
When you have only known chaos, a relationship with no strings attached feels like a trap.

Suddenly, I’m too much.
Too direct. Too loyal. Too intense. Too self aware.
They start acting weird distant, defensive, dismissive.

But it’s not because I changed.
It’s because my presence required growth.
Because I didn’t mirror their pain, I mirrored their potential.
And that kind of reflection can be hard to look at when you are still hiding from your own healing.

I used to wonder why people switched up on me.
Why my energy made them uncomfortable.
Why my care felt like confrontation.
Why my presence made them retreat.

But now I get it.
I wasn’t the problem.
I was the mirror.

My energy, my honesty, my loyalty  they exposed what some weren’t ready to face.

And when someone isn’t ready to grow,
they will reject the very thing that could’ve healed them.

So no, I’m not shrinking.
I’m not second guessing the gift of who I am.
And I’m definitely not dimming just to make chaos feel safe.

You can keep your drama, your noise, your avoidance.

I’ll keep my peace.
Even if I’m not always peaceful  I protect what keeps me grounded.
And that’s the most radical gift I can give to myself.

And yes this happens at work, too.

You walk into a team meeting with clarity and conviction and suddenly you are intimidating.
You bring emotional honesty, and they label it too much.
You push for accountability, and they call it extra.
You speak up with solutions, and they act like you are a problem.

But really, you are just not participating in the dysfunction they are used to.

Workplaces thrive on chaos fire drills, favoritism, and silence.
So when you show up bold, grounded, and unwilling to play those games,
you become the disruption.

Not because you are difficult
but because you’re different.

Because you lead with love in a place addicted to power.
You set boundaries where others seek validation.
You embody truth where performance used to live.

And when a workplace isn’t ready to grow,
they will push out the very presence that could have transformed the culture.

So whether it’s in life or at work…

Keep your chaos.
I’ll keep my peace.

Even if I bring it loud.
Even if I bring it fiery.
Even if I’m not the calm, I’m the clarity.

ღ Chi

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